Can Anybody Find A Home?
Life has slowly been climbing uphill for the past three months, since leaving the world of UrbanFlorist and all that negativity.
Working for Plenteus.com - the small amount I've accomplished for them in the past week, has been more fulfilling than anything I've done in the last year. Since meeting Tom for coffee a week ago I've made arrangements to distribute their postcards in Joe's new magazine for 10 cents/copy, and score them an article in Business Edge magazine while attempting to make sales pitches to event planners.
In the past week I've made amends with Dave, Brian, and Lynne, removing a large sorce of sadness from my life, and finally removing the last peice of negative energy UrbanFlorist had in my life.
I've We've started making love again. Started crying again, from being overwhelmed, from being touched inside. Started kissing, slowly, started tasting skin again, started enjoying the getting there so much more than the end result.
He called me the ultimate unconditional lover, and thanked me for all the patience, all the standing by, all the silent understanding. He spent a night, slowly, kissing me, softly all over, repeating that he loves me, saying those words for the first time in... at least a year, tears in his eyes, just repeating the words and kissing me. I opened my mouth to reciprocate and he told me no, that he wants to feel he's earned his trust back before I say those words, he says he wants to have a chance to prove his sincerity to me before I let myself get there again.
I never gave up on our love, I never let myself walk away. Despite all thats happened and all he's done and all we've been through, I never fell out of love, and I've always known who he is and understood that these phases we go through and depressions we suffer aren't who we are and cause us to act out in ways that we can't explain and aren't proud of. I know that in life, the things we do aren't always a reflection of who we are.
I feel so overwhelmed and inspired and at peace with the world, everything in my world is so positive, so encouraging, so worth all the work I've done and all the bullshit and despair I've put up with over the past year.
Working for Plenteus.com - the small amount I've accomplished for them in the past week, has been more fulfilling than anything I've done in the last year. Since meeting Tom for coffee a week ago I've made arrangements to distribute their postcards in Joe's new magazine for 10 cents/copy, and score them an article in Business Edge magazine while attempting to make sales pitches to event planners.
In the past week I've made amends with Dave, Brian, and Lynne, removing a large sorce of sadness from my life, and finally removing the last peice of negative energy UrbanFlorist had in my life.
He called me the ultimate unconditional lover, and thanked me for all the patience, all the standing by, all the silent understanding. He spent a night, slowly, kissing me, softly all over, repeating that he loves me, saying those words for the first time in... at least a year, tears in his eyes, just repeating the words and kissing me. I opened my mouth to reciprocate and he told me no, that he wants to feel he's earned his trust back before I say those words, he says he wants to have a chance to prove his sincerity to me before I let myself get there again.
I never gave up on our love, I never let myself walk away. Despite all thats happened and all he's done and all we've been through, I never fell out of love, and I've always known who he is and understood that these phases we go through and depressions we suffer aren't who we are and cause us to act out in ways that we can't explain and aren't proud of. I know that in life, the things we do aren't always a reflection of who we are.
I feel so overwhelmed and inspired and at peace with the world, everything in my world is so positive, so encouraging, so worth all the work I've done and all the bullshit and despair I've put up with over the past year.
posted by Jeannette at 11:55 PM
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